God knows our hearts, even when we think He doesn't.
I strongly believe that I am called to be a stay-at-home Mom, wife, and caretaker. It is part of my biggest dream and goal as a woman and as a person. It is what I long to do. However, the other part of my biggest dream and goal is to live on our land and to have a little pet farm.
Both of these are big dreams and goals to reach. Both of these dreams and goals are not going to just plop in my lap like the way I wish they would. Like all dreams, it takes hard work and determination to fulfill those dreams. My dream might not be to sing on stage or to be in front of the camera or to work in some high-up company. Although those are great dreams to have, too, it's just not mine.
I used to think that since Hunter is currently here that I needed to drop everything else and hold off on accomplishing my other dreams. It is very hard for me to not want to be with Hunter all the time, especially when my calling is to be a stay-at-home mom. However, I have to remember that there are other things to work towards.
Living on our land is a huge goal and dream that needs to be sought after. Currently, we still live with my mom. Although this has been a HUGE blessing and gift and although we are comfortable here, we still need to work towards having our own place as a family.
As much as I want to be a stay-at-home mom now, in doing so, it does not get us very far, at least not very fast. For about a month, I tried being a stay-at-home mom, wife, and caretaker. I absolutely loved it! But, I wasn't getting any closer to my other dream. I wasn't helping my family to reach the goal of living on our land.
Therefore after much prayer and many applications, I finally found a job working at a daycare. And, the awesome thing about it is that I work 3 days a week, which means I get 2 days + the weekend to spend quality time with Hunter, spoiling my husband, and taking care of where we live. It's a way for me to accomplish both dreams at the same time!
We don't know when we will actually be able to live on our land, but every day gets closer to that dream coming true. Each step I take and we take as a family gets us all closer to our dreams. Until then, I will work on enjoying each day and living for today while praying and looking forward to our dreams coming true!
After some thinking, I have decided to take a ]break from Facebook, and it might be indefinitely...
Although I enjoy seeing everyone's posts and seeing where everyone is at in life, I have found myself spending too much time just scrolling through. It is my go-to downtime. It's not a bad thing, but when my ever-growing 1 year old is sitting right in front of me and I'm glued to my phone/Facebook instead of soaking up every moment I can with him while I still have him, then it's time to make a change.
I also have realized that I am back to comparing myself to others. Again, I love seeing everyone's cheerful and exciting news! I love seeing others succeed and accomplish their goals and dreams. Seeing others succeed encourages me to go after my dreams and accomplish my goals. Although this is a great motivator, it also causes me to have jealousy and to focus too much on my future versus what is right in front me. I say to myself, "I wish I could go on a trip like that", or "I wish I could succeed in school like that", etc. Having this kind of mindset isn't healthy because it makes me forget to be thankful for the gifts and blessings that God put right in front of my face.
Don't get me wrong, I have dreams and goals, in fact I have MANY of them. Some I have shared on here before and others I have not. I will always have dreams. Dreams are important! BUT, when those dreams become more important then what you already have, then it's time to make some changes. It's funny because I feel like I post a lot about being thankful and that is the main goal of "BakersJourney", but I don't even take my own advice.
It's not that I'm not thankful for what I have, I just don't focus on it as much as I do the future. But, we are not guaranteed tomorrow. Maybe my dreams will come true, and maybe they won't. I can always pray, seek, and do what I can to reach those goals and dreams, but when it's all said and done, all we have is TODAY! So, instead of "wishing for something", I want to start "living for TODAY!"
"How can I help someone TODAY?"
"How can I make God proud TODAY?"
"How can I love and provide for my family TODAY?"
"What am I thankful for TODAY?"
I may not get it right all the time, but I hope by making a few changes that it will help me get there, little by little. I remember when I took a break before how much it helped me and how more aware I became of the blessings given each day. So here's to getting back to that...
I will still post on BakersJourney, so if you want to follow our journey or see some really cute Hunter pictures, then be sure to like and follow our page!
Tah Tah for now Facebook or until further notice!
Well guys, life happened already. *SIGH* I promise I had every intention of making a fabulous and healthy meal tonight for dinner-marinated chicken, baked red potatoes, asparagus. But when you have a fussy baby, *SIGH* diarrhea going up baby's back, *SIGH* and food & bottle flown across the floor because of that fussy and diarrhea baby *SIGH*, you give up trying.
To rest my case, I did prep the potatoes, seasoned them, placed them on the prepared pan, and tempted to place them in the oven...but when you dump half of the 3 pounds of prepared potatoes on the oven door while trying to put them in the oven, you try not to curse and say "forget this! It's just not meant to be today...there's always tomorrow!" Which I intend on trying again tomorrow for two reasons: 1 - to not let the food that I bought with our own money (that my husband worked SO hard for) go to waste and 2 - to have triumph over those potatoes!
"You think you won potatoes, but think again, this Momma ain't givin' up that easily!!"
Needless to say, all of this led to pizza and broccoli bite take-out. It was good, it was easy, and it was satisfying. However, I can say that I can tell my body isn't used to that grease and stuff already, and it's only my second day of eating "healthy". So hopefully tomorrow will go as planned. But, at least the pizza had veggies on it and I chose broccoli bites over french fries...right?
The key is to NOT let myself fall back into my old habits of eating. It's okay to give yourself a treat every now and then, especially in desperate moments like tonight, but it's important to have the mindset of getting back on track the next day.
*Thanks to my Momma for the paying for the pizza and broccoli bites and for your help!!*
•Peanut Butter Banana Shake (see second picture for recipe)
•Blueberry Greek yogurt with crushed up granola bar.
My goal this week is to rotate breakfast and lunch between 2 different days worth of meals in order to use up the ingredients I bought from the store so to keep to our budget as well.
So for instance:
Breakfast: shake and yogurt
Snack: cucumbers and sea salt
Lunch: chicken salad wrap with cranberries, kiwi
Snack: carrots and ranch
Dinner: chicken, asparagus, and red potatoes
Snack (if needed): kiwi and almonds
Breakfast: turkey bacon, eggs, and toast
Snack: cucumbers and sea salt
Lunch: turkey slices (although it will be ham slices to finish up what we have open already), 2 tangerines
Snack: carrots and ranch
Snack (if needed): Shake
And then I will rotate these meal plans until I run out or until I go to the store next, which has been every Tuesday so far.
*For this month’s budget, I tried going to the grocery store once a week to see if it would cut down on our month expense for that category. Other than eating out twice and Hunter’s birthday, it would have ended great! So I am going to try it again next month, without eating out and without Hunter’s birthday and see if it ends well again.*
Peanut Butter Banana Protein Shake
1/2 cup of Almond Milk
2 scoops of Organic Protein Shake (it’s a smaller scoop inside the container)
2 Tablespoons of Natural Peanut Butter (yes 2, but it helps to cut down on the grittiness
1 whole banana
Couple handfuls of spinach
It’s not the best thing in the world, but after a couple of sips you get used to it, and then it’s not too bad.
So today was core workout. I loved it! And can’t wait to see those results when the time comes! But it’s a process and a life one, not just a season!
Does anyone else struggle with the plank?? Have any tips for me?
Arms are tomorrow-yippee and yikes at the same time!
"Of course, there's nothing wrong with bigger dreams
Just don't miss the minutes on your way, your bigger things, no
'Cause these simple moments change the world" -Josh Wilson
"The God who does all things makes oceans from river" -Josh Wilson
I heard this song on my Spotify the other day and it spoke wonders to me. I'm always thinking and dreaming about the future, about the "big things". I ask "big" of God all the time. But maybe I need to start asking for those "smaller things".
It's not that it's bad to want, think, or dream those big dreams, but don't let it become your whole focus that it distracts you from what's right in front of you. (I'm learning this, myself!). Enjoy every moment that God gives you, because you never know when it will be gone. Plus, it's in those "smaller moments" that God can do something "BIG!"
Small can of diced tomatoes
4 cups tomato juice
14 fresh basil leaves
1 cup heavy whipping cream
1/2 cup butter
Salt and pepper to taste
*When you puree it, make sure you use a safe tool to do it, and be careful of the steam....I pureed mine in my blender, and although it did its job, I didn't think about the steam coming from the plastic lid before I done did it...ouch and oops!*
*Yes, I used heavy cream and yes, I used a stick of butter in it, and you know what??...it tasted amazing! haha. It was my way of using up things in the kitchen that needed to be eaten up before the expiration date.*
*For the grilled cheese, I used Sara Lee Artesano bread (which is thicker than normal) and I spread Mayo on them instead of butter. Again, not the healthiest, but SO good!*
I can tell my body isn’t used to having a breakfast like this as I usually eat 2 or 3 bowls of cereal or sometimes toast (what can I say, I love my carbs 😉). But I think it’s because I’m not use to feeling this full after a morning meal. Or it also could be because I put too much milk in my eggs and now I feel icky from that 🙃...it’s a process haha).
As you can see I also used white toast as opposed to wheat. But it’s because that’s what we had on-hand, and in order to stick to our grocery budget, I am going to use up what we have in the kitchen already so it doesn’t go to waste. However, I still might not always buy wheat bread or things like that as it’s not my favorite things in the world, but I think as long as I find balance in my other meals and in my portion control, then it should be fine.
I used to get SO caught up into doing it all the “right way” as if there’s some kind of formula to being healthy. But it’s not! It’s just choosing healthier options over non-healthy ones. Choosing to eat fresh, instead of processed. It’s watching how much you eat. It’s making a balance of your meals. And it’s finding exercise in your day, even if that’s just walking in the park or playing with your kids...just stay active or find ways within your day to be active.
So I might not get it perfect all the time, but I am committed to doing my BEST!!
I am determined to commit to doing my best to stay healthy for my family and to boost my own confidence. So here is my first of many videos/posts of becoming the “new me” with the same heart.
But I NEED YOU to keep me going! So feel free to shoot me a message or status asking if I did my workout and meals that day. If you like what you see, then I also challenge YOU to join!
I’m not doing anything too special. I have tried and tried doing paid fitness and health things, but they just never worked. But through doing those, I have learned (but still learning) what to eat and not eat and how to exercise better. So I’m kinda just winging it myself, but I’m hoping with accountability, that it will help me to stay the course.
So who’s with me??
Hi, my name is Rayann Baker. I am a wife and a mom to our wonderful son and to 4 cats.
My passions in life are God, my family, and following God's will for my life.
My favorite hobbies are growing my relationship with God, taking care of my family, and dreaming of our farm goals on our land.
About the Blog
Baker's Journey is a collage of life moments that we encounter as a family.
To inspire and encourage others by sharing and embracing our journey through life and to be thankful for each moment God gives us.