Ever since I was a little suburban girl, I dreamt of having a farm house to live in and some acreage to live on. I had it all mapped out in my head of what it had to look like and have. For instance, the house had to actually look like a farm house with a large porch, plenty of windows for sunlight to come through, white siding with colored shutters. A house that would be custom built. A house that would be my first and my last. A house that would be in mine and my future husband's names for a very long time. The land had to have plenty of acreage for farm animals to roam around (especially a horse), and to drive a 4-wheeler on. Willow trees, fruit trees, and flowering trees had to be there. There had to be a tree to put a tire swing on it. Mountains had to be part of the view. Water had to be somewhat near it. Gravel road or a gravel driveway had to be there to be able to listen to the crackling sound of tires hitting the rocks. Birds and deer needed to be common visitors. Hearing the joy of children's laughter fill the air had to be there. Basking in the stillness and peace of God's Presence had to be there, also. Little did I know that those dreams were actually going to come true....
However, it was not so easy getting to this point. Due to having this dream and envisions built inside of me at a young age, I always had this deeper feeling that one day I would be able to live out those dreams that I had as a little girl. I think it was God's way of telling me that it was going to happen eventually. So, having that "feeling" of knowing that, you'd think that it would have made it easier for me to be patient in waiting for that dream to unravel, but in reality, it did quite the opposite, especially once I was married.
When we were married, crazy me thought that my dream home was going to appear out of thin air and be given to us right-a-way...but guess what...it didn't! So this lead to me being very unsatisfied with anything and everything else that we looked at, and it brought a lot of discouragement and me asking God why...a lot.
After about 5 years of searching and searching, praying and praying for the right place to grow our little family, the more disappointed we became due to things not working out. I even tried to set aside my dreams for a while and see if we could find a townhouse or even a condo that would work, but even those were a no. As the no's kept coming, the more fed up with it we became, so we decided to take a break from searching for a while. During this break, my mom, grandma, and I were driving back on the 4th of the July this past Summer from visiting another family member and I was sharing with them how hard it has been to find our own place to live. My mom asked me how far we had our realtor looking for places to live, I told her, and then she mentioned asking the realtor to further the search area just so we didn't limit our place of searching. So, I texted Brandon to do just that, when I did, he responded back that he had actually seen this land for sale that he was interested in but he didn't want to say anything to me about it because we were supposed to be taking a break from searching. The more details he was sharing, the more interest I was becoming in it, also. As soon as I got home from the trip, I told him that I wanted to go see the land in person right then and there. He agreed, and off we went...all before watching the fireworks that same night.
We were very anxious, excited, and nervous on the drive to the land because as much as we liked the information we had seen online, we also didn't want to get our hopes up if it didn't work out...again! Before even reaching to our destination, we were mesmerized by the beautiful drive to the land. And then we finally came to the property. We fell IN LOVE with it! We both had this instant pull towards it, as if we belonged there..as if it was home! I made a comment to Brandon as we were leaving the property that if this really is the right place for us, then it's just God showing off. Sure enough it was and is the right place for us! The purchase happened so quick and smooth, which was another confirmation that this land is in fact the right one. And the cool part is, is that when my mom told me to further the search on the way back from my trip, it was also about the same location as our land is at.
We are completely blown away by God's grace and blessing with this land. It has everything our heart's desires and more. It's 10.8 acres which is plenty of room to have the things we want on it; it's road frontage on a back country GRAVEL road; there is a nice stream up the road some; there are trails in the woods part for horse back riding or 4-wheeling; birds, deer, and other wild life visit it often; and so much more.
So now as we are living with my parents for now, we are able to enjoy our piece of property any time we want and at the same time brainstorm the house that we would like to build on it. We are so grateful for God's blessing that our number 1 focus with the land is to give it ALL back to God. Allow Him to use the land and us in mighty ways. Our prayer is that He will anoint the property with His presence, so that anyone or anything that touches the property that they will feel and see Him, the one who created this property and gave us this property, and not us.
Even though I had to wait a few years to start living out my dreams as a little girl, it was all worth it in the end. Sometimes we have to let go of ourselves so that God can step in and make a move. So many times our human minds get in the way, and God has to remind us to step down from ourselves to allow Him some room to do His work. Until then, He waits for that right moment, and when that moment comes, you better watch out, because He is going to do amazing things! He has proven that to us over and over again, both individually and as a couple. God is good! And, God is faithful!
Click on the link to hear the song, "My List" https://open.spotify.com/track/3vzmDjQ7E6gzAVg4ecp6XU
The act of loosing our 22 week little boy has birthed in me a new meaning and outlook on life. It has reminded me that life here on Earth is so uncertain and short. At any moment, it could be our time to leave this world. Although, as a Christian, I long for that day to come to be able to see my Father & Savior face-to-face (and now Noah's face), I still want my life here on Earth to count for something.
Hearing this song today made me think about the important things in life that we (and I) should be focusing on, such as spending time with God in prayer and in His word, spreading his love to others, spending time with those that we love, etc. We shouldn't take life for granted or become too complacent with the lives that we live. You never know when it will be snatched away from you.
So I hope this song will help encourage you to think about the things that are really important to you, and then to go do something about them!
Sometimes this so-called life can award us, challenge us, suck us in or spits us out. Sometimes life can seem easy to pass by, whereas other times this world may give us obstacles to climb. We have recently experienced one of those obstacles, and we wish to tell you all in hopes that it may encourage someone else who is going through a touch time....
About 2 weeks ago (two Fridays ago, to be exact), my husband and I went to have our normal anatomy ultrasound to check on our baby Noah. Prior to entering the ultrasound room, we were stoked to see our little one on the screen, and figured it would be a quick and easy ultrasound. Little did we know that an expected half hour visit would turn into a 3 hour visit with nurses and the doctor overloading us with information that no parent likes to hear. As the doctor went on to describe all the serious birth defects she saw, the more confused we became. The question that ran through our minds was: "how can our child be so unhealthy when we ourselves are so healthy?". We decided to have an amniocentesis done (which is where they take DNA samples from the baby while being in the womb) to have them be shipped to a lab for further results. Due to all of this information pressed upon us, we left that doctor's office with a heavy heart.
The heavy heart continued in a long-drawn out weekend. Waiting for the results to come in felt like an eternity. Monday finally came, and we met with the Genetic Counselor to discuss more in detail what was seen on the scans. However, they also received the first part of the DNA test results, so we also discussed what those were, as well. In a nutshell, our baby Noah had a very rare condition called Triploidy. Triploidy is when a baby has a whole entire extra set of chromosomes (x,y, 13, 18, and 21). Having all of those chromosomes can cause the baby to have severe birth defects because it is too many for the structure of the baby to understand. It is not genetic nor hereditary; it's just one of those rare pregnancies that occur. We were told that babies with Triploidy do not survive, and often times will end in a miscarriage. So, once again, we left that same doctor's office with a huge burden on our shoulders.
However, we wanted to make sure we had a second opinion to verify what the doctor's actually saw was true. So, that Friday, we traveled a little over an hour to a more up-scale hospital to have that other opinion. And to our dismay, the same results remained. To say that was a very long hour ride back home would be an understatement.
Although I wish I would be saying this differently, that next Friday, our sweet and precious baby Noah went to Heaven to be with His Creator. This has been one crazy roller coaster, and it's only been a total of 2 and a half weeks since this process has started. Although we miss him very much, our faith in the Lord is helping us to get through this un-explainable time in our lives.
Through this whole process, our NUMBER ONE prayer was for Noah not to suffer. And although I would have preferred to have Noah healed here on Earth, I still know that our prayer was answered...and in the very best way possible! Noah is now healed completely, and he is with our Heavenly Father, who we as children of God long for. Noah does not have to encounter any of life's obstacles or challenges. He will never know pain or suffering. He is made whole in the arms of Jesus, and for that, we will always be grateful for.
I know there will be moments in our lives where we will miss Noah and wish that he was here in our arms, but having the peace that He is better than okay being in the realm of Heaven is so much greater. Plus, it makes Heaven that much greater for us to look forward to!
As I was saying in the "Daily Walk" page, I am a HUGE perfectionist. I'm not a perfectionist in all areas of my life, but the areas that I am, I really am one! Some of these areas include: my outfits, my hair (even though I don't do a whole lot to it, I still like it and expect it to do what I want it to do), my grammar, my cooking/baking, and being a hostess for get-togethers and parties. There are more, but these are the biggies.
For my outfits, everything HAS to match from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. All the colors have to go with each other. If I wear any kind of pattern, it all has to be the same kind of pattern, but the whole outfit can't be all pattern, it has to have some solids in there to tone it down. All of my jewelry has to match my outfit. I can't wear the same thing twice in one week (or more...mostly more). My outfits have to lay just right on me...so no ruffle where there is no ruffle, no lines where there is no lines, nothing poking out, and wherever the length is designed to be at, then that length better be right on me when I put it on, etc.
For my hair, all of the pieces HAVE to lay accordingly. Now, again, I'm not one who likes to curl my own hair, straighten my own hair, or do anything fancy to my own hair. I LOVE it when others do it, but for me, I'd rather just wake up, brush it, maybe put a head band in or a hair clip in it, and go. I'm someone who would rather sleep in longer and wake up 30 mins before I have to go somewhere, and be done in that 30 mins. However, when I do brush it and put something in it, then it better do what I want it to do, or when I put it up in a pony tail or in a big hair clip, then the top of my head better be as straight as possible, with no lumps or straggly hairs, or again, when I wash my hair and put it up in a bun with a scrunchie, and when I take it out and shake my hair around, then it better look extra wavy like it's supposed to look.
For my grammar, I am more of an English person, so having proper grammar is a big deal to me. I'm that person who when I text, I text the whole word out, I put correct punctuation in the correct spots, I use the correct "they're, there, and their", "to, too, two", "where, wear, we're", etc.....or I at least try to do all of that correctly, but sometimes the auto-correct will change it into something else, which can get annoying at times haha.
For my cooking/baking, oh my goodness, this is probably one of my top biggest areas of being a perfectionist in out of the other biggies (and that's saying something haha). My ultimate goal when it comes to cooking/baking is to be able to make to everything homemade or at least most of it without having to rely on a written recipe all of the time. But, since I'm still learning how to cook and bake, and all of the techniques and such behind it, I still have to use recipes from a book, a card, and/or Pinterest, so I can know what to do and when to do it. And, often times, when you use a written recipe, then there is a picture that goes along with it so you know what it's going to look like when it's finished. Well, because I am a perfectionist in this area, if whatever I cook or bake has a picture with the recipe, then my finished product better look exactly like it does in the picture! It HAS to be picture perfect, just like it looks in the picture for the recipe. And, of course, it has to taste exactly right, too!
For my hosting of get-togethers or parties, I typically plan ahead of time of how I want the event to go, what food I want, what decorations I want, etc. When it comes time to prepare all of these things, it all HAS to go smoothly. It better not have any snags, bumps, or mishaps along the way. And, the finished project absolutely has to look and go perfectly!
If any of these thing don't work out like they're supposed to, then you better watch out! ;) It's in these times when I show my true colors haha. I can get soooo frustrated and irritated when it doesn't work out. I usually huff and puff and yell, "Come on!" or "Stupid!" to either myself or the object(s) that is making me upset lol...(Don't judge me ;) haha). Sometimes when it gets really bad, like when I keep dropping my fresh produce on the floor as I'm chopping them up, I get all quiet. That's when I know and my husband knows that it is NOT going well, and that I just need to be left alone in those moments lol...(Man, I'm really telling on myself on this one lol).
When I get that upset though, I start putting myself down, which I know isn't good, but that's just something I do. When things don't go right in those areas of my life, then I get all depressed and feel like a failure. And, I feel that way for a quite a long time.
But, when I take a minute to step back, I realize that the things that get me soo emotional are really just simple, frivolous things to get upset over. I mean, in the moment, if feels like it's the biggest deal in the world, but in the big scheme of things, it's actually quite small when you compare it to other big deals in this world like starvation, death, etc. So, this is a continuing lesson learned process of not getting so caught up in these "...terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day" kind of moments, but instead looking at it from a more positive, different approach...which is that I am still young, and that I am still learning how to get through different obstacles that come my way (Viorst, "Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day"). And, in order for me to get through the big hoops and jumps, I have to learn how to get through and to conquer the smaller steps in life....even if that means being frustrated at times. ;) :)
Psalm 14 verse
"The fool says in his heart,
"There is no God."
They are corrupt, their deeds are vile,
there is no one who does good.
The LORD looks down from heaven
on all mankind
to see if there are any who understand,
any who seek God.
All have turned away, all have become corrupt;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.
Do all these evildoers know nothing?
They devour my people as though eating bread;
they never call on the LORD.
But there they are, overwhelmed with dread,
for God is present in the company of
You evildoers frustrate the plans of the poor,
but the LORD is their refuge.
Oh, that salvation for Israel would come
out of Zion!
When the LORD restores his people, let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!"
After reading this, I couldn't help but think that even though this scripture was written a long time ago, in the Bible times, that this can be kind of related to today....
Although there is still good in this world, it does seem like more and more tragic is happening. You got America pulling further and further away from Biblical standards AND what our Founding Fathers built this land on, which was the foundations of God, and "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness" (Thomas Jefferson). You got ISIS over in the Middle East. Almost every time you turn on the news, somebody has done something cruel to another person, and the list can go on and on. It makes me think of the song by Toby Keith, called, "35 MPH Town" (you can click on this link to listen to the song: https://play.spotify.com/track/3jXZYyI0yEENnTSnaddSBQ).
Overall, there are times when this world seems to be like how it was when David wrote this chapter in Psalms in the Bible ages....where there is corruption, evildoers, and less God-focused.
Now, one thing for us to keep in mind, is that although we as humans are seeing other human beings treat others badly or that God is becoming less-focused on in this world, that there is a bigger scheme at work that we as humans DON'T see. What I mean is, (which this might seem very weird to those who don't know or understand what I'm about to talk about, but it talks about it in the Bible, so be sure to look it up if you don't know or understand haha) there is a spiritual warfare going on around us. We can't visibly see it because we are of flesh, but once we die and become our spiritual self I believe that we will see that warfare. But right now since all we can physically see is the "bad" things happening in this world, we have to remember that it goes deeper than that, and that there is a bigger meaning behind it. And, I believe part of that reason is that Satan is trying to corrupt this world as much as possible before the Lord comes back for His people.
However, there is HOPE! When you reach the bottom of this verse, it reads, "....but God is their refuge. Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion! When the LORD restores his people, let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!" (Psalm 14, verses 6 & 7). This gave me encouragement (and I hope it does for you, too) to know that no matter what we may go through here on Earth, whether you were in the Bible times or are in the 2015 times, we can count on God to be our refuge and restorer. He is our hope! He is our future! He is our everything! Yippee!! :)
So, what is there not to say about Luke Bryan?! He's a 2nd time winner for Entertainer of the Year, he's got that southern man charm, his songs on the radio are the best (at least that's my personal preference ;)), he can rustle hogs and alligators with his two bare hands, his concerts are fun and groovy, he's got a nice smile, and so on.
Needless to say, he's my favorite male country artist ;)
But, as much as Luke has going for him, he still can't beat my Hubby ;) My husband is my "dream man"! He has loving eyes and smile; he's patient, kind-hearted, and respectful; he's handsome; he's passionate; he's a family man; he's dependable; most importantly, he's a Godly man; and I can go on and on....and the best part about it is that I get to call him MINE!! :)
In this particular passage of scripture, it talks about how God spoke to Abram, whom He later calls Abraham in this verse. God tells him that he and his wife, Sarai, whom He later calls Sarah in this verse, that they will give birth to a son in one year's time from when God spoke to Abraham. Now, because Abraham and Sarah were very old at this time (Abraham was 99 and Sarah would have been 89 at the time God spoke to them, which would make Abraham 100 and Sarah 90 by the time they would give birth to their firstborn son), Abraham laughed at the thought of that. However, God spoke again, and said that He will have Sarah give birth to a son. They were to call him Isaac, and God will make many nations through Abraham and Isaac.
Towards the end of this passage, God also demands Abraham to have any male at age 8 and up to be circumcised. But, what exactly does that all mean? I wasn't quite sure, so I did some digging around the internet to see if I could find some information.
...............Here is what I found................
I first looked up the definition of circumcision. I have heard it a couple times before and had an idea of what it meant, but wasn't sure. So here is the definition I found:
"Circumcision is the surgical removal of the prepuce of foreskin of a male. The word circumcised literally means 'to cut around" (paragraph 1).
Having the mind that I do, I still had to do some research to find out exactly what definition meant, also. I would share that here, too, but I don't want to offend anybody by going in detail what it means....so I'll just let you research it on your own ;) (If you look up the word "prepuce" or "foreskin", you will find more info.).
After finding out what "circumcision" really meant, I asked myself, why would God tell Abraham to do that?
So, I looked that up too.....
Basically, God told Abraham to do that simply to see if Abraham and all of his descendants at that time would obey God in doing what God asked of them. It was just another way for humans to show their appreciation in God, and that they will follow Him.
..............Here is a link to a website that I read that explains more on that..................
After researching this information, it definitely helped me to understand the purpose of this passage, and the meaning behind it. And, I hope it helped you, too...if you didn't know already! :)
"What does the Bible say about Circumcision? What is the Christian view of Circumcision? got questions?org. http://www.gotquestions.org/circumcision.html.
As I was reading Genesis 11 today, it talks about The Tower of Babel. Some of the people in that time wanted to build a tower as high as the heavens to make a name for themselves. When God saw what they as humans can do, which in this case, build a really tall tower, He said in Genesis 11, verse 6 that "....nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them...."
*That's not to say that God didn't "know" that humans could build, because He is God and He created human beings, but the point that I'm trying to get across about this verse and phrase is this:
Now, back to the original story and to the purpose of this blog....
When God saw that the humans in that day were building The Tower of Babel, he said to them, "If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. Come let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other" (all of verse 4 in Genesis 11).
The purpose of this blog is to demonstrate through this Bible story that we serve a humorous God, and this is why.....
Imagine God talking to his angels about the people in this story who started building this really tall tower, and saying something like this:
God: "Hey, those humans down there are building that tall tower, which would be cool if they were building it for me, but it seems like they are only building it to make themselves look better. Sooo, let's go confuse them by giving each person a different language to speak, instead of the same language. This way when they talk to each other, they can't understand each other."
I can totally picture God smiling at this point knowing what was about to happen haha. I can also picture the peoples's puzzled faces as they were talking to their friend or neighbor about something, and then out of no-where in mid sentence they started talking in a totally different language to where nobody understood what the other one was saying, and I'm sure the person actually talking became confused, too LOL. I can totally picture God in heaven looking down at all the confusion, laughing and getting a kick out of the whole thing LOL.
Another humorous perspective on this Bible story is:
I think about how the tower in this story was called "Tower of Babel". The word "Babel" to me sounds like the word "babbling" or "blabbing", which makes me think of a group of people just "babbling" or "blabbing" to each other, but not really understanding or listening to what each other is saying, which is what I imagine what happened in the Bible story about the "Tower of Babel".
No wonder some humans have a sense of humor....it's because God has a sense of humor, and once again, He created us in His own image ;) :)
As a wife to a loving husband, I am grateful to say that "my baby loves me just the way that I am" (Martina McBride). I don't have to worry about what I have done, what I do, what I will do...or what I look like. I know that no matter what I can count on him to love me unconditionally and wholeheartedly...just like my Lord, Jesus Christ does.
However, along being a wife, I am also a 4'11", 23 year old who struggles with her weight. I would not necessarily call myself "overweight", but coming from someone who used to be fit due to dance classes 3 days a week while in high school, it has been depressing enough just gaining about 20-30 pounds. Now, I'm not saying I was the thinnest I wanted to be in high school either (I was and still am a fan of donuts, Skittles, and Salt and Vinegar chips ;)), but at least I felt better.
You might be thinking that 20-30 some pounds isn't all that bad, but for someone who has always cared about what she looks like, having pants that don't fit anymore because they are too tight, it's a big deal to her (to me). Also, for someone who battles with self-confidence at times anyways, it doesn't help that when I stand in front of a body-length mirror and notice she has a "bowling ball belly" shape ;), a thicker low half, and flabbier arms, and when I notice the difference in pictures of what I looked like when I was in high school to how I am now, it is a little frustrating.
Alright enough of my own pity party....
In saying all this, I do think their should be a difference from a carefree, adolescent high school-er to a caring, married adult. Being happily married and the joy of being a daughter of the Most High King is something that should be worn on me at all times, no matter what size I am. And, when I do see my self in the mirror, I should see the beauty that my King and that my husband sees in me...and not what I see in myself......
My goal after all of this is to work on getting fit again so that I can feel healthier and to build up more confidence in myself....but my ultimate goal is to learn how to be sufficient in the body that God gave me, and know in my heart that MY God and My husband loves me, just the way that I am! :)
A very simple, but yet powerful and encouraging two words....so I will let the picture and words speak for itself :)